~ REMINISCING ~

i start the lappy then start to browse on the memories in this blog..

Oh my oh my.. its 2011 already... and im almost 24 in a few days to come.

i go through the burfday wishes from 2 of my frens thru their blogs.. aww.. it was sweet..really!

Then i've gone through all the old blogs i wrote about 'emo day' and 'teringat' and 'cikgu'... it brings me back there once again.. really.. i miss 2009.. it was the best story line ever!

talked to B a few days ago and she said that i live in memories..

i said i have nothing else to do rather than sit at home and reminisce.. it triggers me to write this..

its not that im not happy with my life.. but really im at my downstage since im too adult to have to take care of my own commitments and responsibilities.. i dont like to be an adult.. but its a phase that everyone have to go through.. unless u die young...so im dealing with it..

i guess i grew old too fast.. 24 is already entering adult phase ryte??

when i read the 'emo day' entry, i realize how innocent i was back then, how foolish and stupid i was.. i wanted my frens to live me alone and let me choose whoever i want n whatever i need becoz i have rights..

duh~ u guys are my frens..of u care.. of coz u want to put ur hand in my dirty business.. we were all together...we were young we need consults.. durr~

i should wrote an entry.. sumthing like.. "okay guys, i learn from my mistakes..and u guys should tell me "i told u so".

well.. i guess i learnt them the hard way..

then, i read about how in love i was..

i mean im still in love.. im still the in love girl who is ready to do anything for love..

but at that time, i can feel the difference.. on the rushes.. the dissapointment... the missings..

the adrenaline..the passions.. the love.. the newly fresh love..

now.. still in love.. just not that innocent type of love nymore..

only.. full-hearted..devoted..committed..trusted..faith.. and the we-will-go-through-this kind of love love.. but yeah..still in love..

and then.. i read about the cikgu2 thing..

i was a very weak teacher.. i cant stand the students until i cant wait for the contract to end..

i should be tougher, stronger and strict! i should but i didnt.. but nevermind.. it's another lesson to learn for me..

n frens, the memories where we were all still together holding strong in my head.. i cant erase it.. it gives me goosebump everytime i think of it.. i can even still smell it..when i close my eyes.

--ceyh merapu--.. but.. really i cannot erase.. u can talk to me bout our memories thousands zillions time i would not get bored.. cause it played in my head more than we ever talked about it..

Same goes to you B.. all in my head like 'slideshow with smells'. if only i could touch them..

Thanks for still keep our memory book goes on..and on and on...loving each and every single of it.

Im getting bored with my words coz i cant come out with new words due to lack of reading or watching tv's or listening to new songs.. so im going to stop here.. n might only come back after a while..