im worried

i asked him once..:
if u could turn back time
what would u do..

he said..:
i might not want us to happen..
so it woudnt be this hard

monologue:
i want this to happen..
no matter wat cause it brings..
cause i fell in love..

he said again:
it's not that i dont love u..
it's juz.. this is wrong..
the betrayal..

still shutting up:
ok.. but it happened..
should i feel sorry..?
but i didnt mean to fall in love..

i said:
im sory for causing u all the hard times..
im sory that u've betrayed her..
im sory that she's hurt..
because of me...

thinking..:
1 day he might saved all the guilty feelings..
he might leave me..
cause im not kinda girl that
anyone would wanna be with..

he said..:
lalalalalalala~~
i dont wanna think about it.

i said:
okay~~

so today..
he wrote..
'andai ku miliki semalam'~~
is it about turning back time?~
is he keeping all the guilty feeling n
wanting 2 go back?
is he leaving me already?